You Can Do It.

  He makes my heart flutter.  I take that back.  Whenever I am around him or even begin to think about him, it is as if my heart isn’t even there.  Its gone.  He has taken it.  Im not sure wheather it is what everyone warns you about.  How when your fifteen and someone tells you they love you, you are going to believe them.  He is known for having multiple girlfriends.  I want to be his girlfriend.  He is beautiful.  His eyes could bring anybody and everybody in.  He has done so for me.  We have looked into eachother’s eyes for moments that feel like ages.  Then quickly turn away of course.  They say it only takes ten seconds of insane courage, for something amazing to happen.  I wonder if this were to work in my case.  If it were to work if the next time I see him in school or at the gym, I just walk up to him.  Just walk up to him and tell him how I feel.  Tell him that he makes me crazy and have dreams about him and how he just takes my breath away.  And hope, that he feels the same way for me. 

              There was an experiment where a scientist had taken a cat and placed it in a box with a vial of poison.  This vial of poison would burst open at any random time.  Therefore, you had to think of the cat as both dead and alive.  That is until you were to open the box and see if the cat is alive.  Relationships work the same way.  You will have to think that the “Relationship” is going to fail and succeed until you actually try the relationship.  What is the worst that could happen?  Things not workout, you get over him and move on to the next one.  Not.  The worse thing that could happen is he breaks up with you in the middle of homecoming in front of all of your friends.  Then goes to make out with your best friend and spreads rumors saying that you fucked him and gave him herpes.  That is the worse thing that could happen.  So, it should be okay to be scared to begin a new relationship.  Because things won’t always workout.  Sometimes they will be really fucked up.   

            The question is, should you make the first move?  Should you wait for him to make the first move?  Or should you just play hard to get and act like you aren’t even there?  Why is everything so complicated?  If you like the guy, go talk to him.  Don’t sit there fluttering your eyelashes and twirling your hair while he looks at you.  This could go on for weeks.  Yes, it is cliché for the guys to always make the first move, but girls are always fighting for equalities.  We should be in the army too, we should be president too, we should be able to do this.  And good for you, but you hold the biggest double standard of them all.  Wanting the guy to make the first move and pay for dinner and hold the door open.  Be a mother fucking women and do all of that shit yourself.  You’re a big girl.  You can do it.  So, get of your high horse swagger yourself over to him and say “Hey, how are you doing?” . 

            In order to get the confidence to do this, just count to three.  One, two and three.  Kinda like when you know you have to do something so you just do it.  Like riping off a band-aid.  The worst thing he could think is that you are confident.